Hmm...

Tonight was amazing. We raised money for our mission trip and God was so faithful. And yet my heart is so closed off I find it hard to even muster up enough love to say thank you to Him. I feel really sad about that. I wish I would get out of my own way sometimes. Human nature sucks. Evil in this world sucks. What makes me more sad than anything is the evil that I produce. I shame His name rather than make it famous. God please forgive me. I am not a worthy servant.

And we're back to square one.